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Encounter.Posted on Sunday, November 20, 2016 at November 20, 2016 | 0 namStar(s)
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Say, have you ever meet with someone who you really dislike? Someone that always hurts you?
Well, I did. I freaking did today.
And I have started to feel depressed again. Gah. I'm really can't handle the pressure from other people.
Well, you know, one of the reasons why I had a bad year as a Form 4 student because of that person.
You can say I'm involved with that person. And I'm always making that person mad even though I don't know why? *like,seriously*
That person has a strong personality and let's be frank here, that's kind of person that I'm bad at getting along with.
I remember the times that I've spent with that person. It was suffocating. So much. That I'm always ended up crying after receiving many scoldings. I'm became sad for a few weeks that I'm wondered if that counted as depression. That person never try to understand my situation for a little bit and put many pressures on me.
In the end, that person thought I'm an useless person who cannot help with anything, do not know anything , slow , anxious person and useless useless useless person. That person even humiliated me in front others and no one ever did understand that person after all. The truth is, that person was hated by many people and idk if that person knows about that already. *like it's sad if you don't realize that many people have always hated you*
And because of that, I have a low self-esteem after that.
Right now, I'm decided to stop any involvement with that person.
I have always been in pain just by getting near that person. I even questioned myself if I'm a worthy person or not. So, why? Why I should stop avoiding something that always making me hurt? I live to have a good life not to have others trample over my life.
To that person, I hate you. I hate you so much that I cannot forget what have happened. I cannot forget my tears that flowing because of you. And my shattered heart after all this time. I'm really cannot forgive you. Never. And if I did, I really cannot forget what have you done to me.
Someone asked me about revenge. You know what I'm not going to do anything like that. I'm just going to leave quietly. Why? Because I know that I'm not a person like that person thinks of after all. And tell me, what's really terrifying for an enemy? I think that is, hiding your true ability and making your enemy thinks that you are weak and after that, slowly, destroy them with your true ability. I called that "the biggest miscalculation".
After all, ignorance is bliss. If you hide your ability and show them when the time is right, just imagine how taken aback your enemy will be?
I think I'm going to stop for now. And I know that it's bad if I don't forgive that person but forgiving someone who hurts you is really hard you know?
I think that' s all for now. Bye.
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